De cette année qui porte en elle une teinte de fin non négligeable.
Mais c'est pour cela, que nous allons en faire quelque chose d'exceptionnelle.... Non?In five days, it's the beginning of the end, my last year of high-school starts. It's scary in a way, not because of the important exams we'll be passing in June or because the amount work that is expected of us will increase. It's frightening because of the "end" part. After this it will never be the same, some probably most (actually certainly most, but it's hard to admit) of these people we'll have lived with during three years we will never see again. Facebook will let us keep in touch during a couple years and then all that will rest are souvenirs. That is why I want to spend the least time possible thinking about the future, but really I can't. The last year of high school is cut in to two parts preparing those end of the year exams and thinking about, applying for, (visiting) what you're going to do next year. They leave you no time to profit of NOW, let alone think of it (sometimes it seems that the only time you can think about now is when it's over and you reminisce). So they scare all the students with these thoughts, if you don't constantly think of your future you will fail. Miserably. And that's all some of my friends can think about.
After saving this article and never coming back to finish it before school starts, I do come back. I started school a month ago and what I predicted was true. The word on everyone's lips is
"Alors toi qu'est ce que tu vas faire l'année prochaine?" (So, what are
you going to be doing next year). Maybe I know, maybe I actually am just pretending to know because I'm to scared to decide about my
future at 17. But really I'm more concerned about what I'm going to be doing this weekend, or when the next time I see my out of school friends will be. And
perhaps I shouldn't,
perhaps I should be frantically searching through magazines about schools every spare second I have.
And I might in a couple months. Because I kind of have ideas what I want to to later on, and if I really do have a lot of spare time I will look through the magazines. I'm not neglecting my future, but it's impossible for me to always think forward. It's much to
frightening.And really when I see the class, the teachers and the projects that I have this year I don't want to let this year pass by with out realizing it because I was to focused on the next one.
Mais vraiment quand je vois la classe, les profs, les projets qu'on a cette année j'ai aucune envie de toujours penser à après et rater tout ça.
